Day 10

The swelling looks like it has gone down a bit today but I'm gonna be real with you guys here and tell you, I wish I could wake up and have it all be gone and look normal again..er more normal now that my chin is straight. But obviously that isn't going to happen, but in all the other blogs I have found, most people look pretty normal by now and I still feel like a marshmallow monster, especially because my lymph nodes are swollen still and it gives me this really cute double chin/jowls look. I mentioned way back before the surgery that I was self conscious of my chin and felt like I had to constantly apologize for it being off-center, well now its more like I have to apologize for the swelling and the fact that I can't move my lips very much thus making really hard to talk, and hard to understand me when I do talk. That makes me really nervous because I feel like its really important that I go back to school able to make phone calls and I still don't feel like I can do that. I'm probably just being impatient but still.

I am also really nervous about having to change the bands myself now since the doctor did it for me but didn't show me how she did it. I decided to take a trip to the orthodontist on Wednesday to have someone show me how to do it and to answer a few questions I have about how I am supposed to transition to mushy foods in ten days when the bands only allow me to open my mouth enough to take a pill. That just doesn't make sense to me.

My teeth really hurt today, it feels a lot like I got my braces adjusted and its just a consistent ache that doesn't really go away even with Motrin, so that has been really exhausting. Speaking of exhausting, sleeping is getting easier, I've been experimenting with sleeping pills and Benedryl (that sounds so wrong taken out of context) trying to figure out what will get me the best nights sleep, so far both seem to ware off about 3 hours in and I wake up. Also sleeping on my side has been really helpful but it does increase the swelling, every couple hours I have to roll over to the other side because my cheek gets too swollen and it feels like a water balloon again but again, I am hoping that will go away soon.

I am able to fit a really skinny straw between my teeth but puckering my lips around the straw in order to get anything from it is a challenge. I seriously don't know how Kylie Jenner and Angeline Jolie deal with lips like this, although it probably helps that they can feel theirs and mine are still the numbest place on my face. Man, I can't wait for that to go away. Giving them a little lip massage after using a hot compress seems to be helping to bring back some feeling though.